There have been a lot of times in the past year when I questioned certain actions (or a certain action, actually) of mine. Could I have made a mistake? Everyone around me never tired of pointing out how foolish that decision was.
This is why I cannot imagine life without guidance from the Holy Spirit. I look back on my pre-Spirit days and it saddens me to think how much trouble I could have spared myself had I known, many years ago, what (or Whom) I know now.
So was the decision a mistake? Definitely not. How do I know? Because whenever a wave of doubt swept over me, the Spirit of God would gently remind me how it was in fact He who had given me that instruction and how much peace had come upon my troubled spirit at the moment when said instruction came.
Do I have any regrets? Sadly, yes. I wish I had just obeyed and relaxed instead of trying to hustle out an alternative. I still believe it would have taken time for this blessing to manifest; but if I had relaxed from the beginning and trusted that my father could not possibly have given me such an instruction without making alternative plans, I could have spared myself the pain, heartache and disappointment ( not to mention insults) that inevitably came when my own plans failed.
Luckily, though, I have a Father who specialises in turning everything around for my good- including my mistakes. And already, so much good has come from a seemingly unfortunate situation.
What I look forward to the most is the manifestation of all the rest of the promises I received a year and a half ago. I remember the Holy Spirit saying, just three weeks ago, that if I had been allowed to wait this long then I should know that God was preparing me for much more than what I was praying for. That was music to my ears.
If you do not have a relationship with the Lord, right now is the time to start. It makes no sense at all to go another day of your life without Him. Trust me.